i realised something today.
whenever i am sad or down,
i will want to sleep.
haha. and i am sleepy now.
today was a rather disappointing day.
it was the first aid course day2
i was...
disappointed with the instructor for his time management
disappointed with the pretty bad weather
disappointed with the sec3 squad for their behaviour and attitude
lastly, i am disappointed with MYSELF.
yes. myself.
i could have control the situation better
could have ensure more discipline
could have paid more attention to both the cadets and instrutor
could have been firmer
so many "could have"... yet i seem incapable to accomplish any of them.
i was soft.
cause i thought you guys had learnt
you guys are my most senior in the unit
you should know how to behave yourself.
i was wrong. very wrong indeed.
i didnt want to scold you all
didnt want to embarrass you all in public
but can't you guys just be a bit more mature
be more discipline
be more attentive?
i must say.
even the thickest of wires will snap under strain one day.
and i am one thick layer of wire
one that is easily bent and altered
you can turn me and change my rules, i am fine with it
but if one day, when it really snaps, i wouldnt know what would happen.
but i just wonder when this day will come.
patience is a virtue
but am i having too much of it?
self-check time......
Disappointment is the word.
but tml will be a better day!
smile :)
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
disappointment
Monday, November 19, 2007
first aid course day1
hey.. back..
yesterday was a "free" day.
because i got most of my things free.
firstly, i went to the japan trip briefing with my sisters
initially we were about to take cab but later on
my sis boyfriend said we can take his car
so its a free ride.
secondly, after the briefing
we had dinner
at a bbq resturant at cineleisure.
my sis paid for that,
so it a free meal. haha...
thirdly, we went for movie
my sis used her master card to book the tickets.
so free movie tickets!
after that i wanted to eat nacho chips
my sis "volunteered" to pay for me,
so free snacks too. hahaha...
lastly, a free trip home.
haha. i didn't spent a single cent!
except that along the way, i was too hungry and went to buy some bread which i paid myself.
haha. i watched the movie - "The Kingdom"
it is about some terrorism thing.
alot of talking, but what i liked most is the fighting.
haha.. there was one scene which the girl used the knife to stab the guy's "there".
the whole crowd went "AWW...."
haha.. then i realised that most of the people in the cinema are males.
boys are more sensitive. hahah...
for the fighting and violence, i give it:
ok... for today,
its the first aid course.
i learnt quite a lot- the CPR, bandages etc.
its only the first day,
alot more to be covered.
got test somemore. scared sia.
haha..generally it was quite fun la.
although quite alot of hiccups today.
i will try my best to prevent any hiccups tomorrow. :)
and i hope the cadets (no.. is NCO!!) can behave themselves. :(
they almost fight today (wth!!!)
haha..
nvm la. don't blame them.
people who are not mature needs more time to learn.
that's what i have to say. haha...
ok.. i hope for a better day tomorrow!
smile =)
yesterday was a "free" day.
because i got most of my things free.
firstly, i went to the japan trip briefing with my sisters
initially we were about to take cab but later on
my sis boyfriend said we can take his car
so its a free ride.
secondly, after the briefing
we had dinner
at a bbq resturant at cineleisure.
my sis paid for that,
so it a free meal. haha...
thirdly, we went for movie
my sis used her master card to book the tickets.
so free movie tickets!
after that i wanted to eat nacho chips
my sis "volunteered" to pay for me,
so free snacks too. hahaha...
lastly, a free trip home.
haha. i didn't spent a single cent!
except that along the way, i was too hungry and went to buy some bread which i paid myself.
haha. i watched the movie - "The Kingdom"
it is about some terrorism thing.
alot of talking, but what i liked most is the fighting.
haha.. there was one scene which the girl used the knife to stab the guy's "there".
the whole crowd went "AWW...."
haha.. then i realised that most of the people in the cinema are males.
boys are more sensitive. hahah...
for the fighting and violence, i give it:
ok... for today,
its the first aid course.
i learnt quite a lot- the CPR, bandages etc.
its only the first day,
alot more to be covered.
got test somemore. scared sia.
haha..generally it was quite fun la.
although quite alot of hiccups today.
i will try my best to prevent any hiccups tomorrow. :)
and i hope the cadets (no.. is NCO!!) can behave themselves. :(
they almost fight today (wth!!!)
haha..
nvm la. don't blame them.
people who are not mature needs more time to learn.
that's what i have to say. haha...
ok.. i hope for a better day tomorrow!
smile =)
Saturday, November 17, 2007
NP n the year ahead
yeah.. back...
haha.. i like being busy.. if not i will start thinking about studies again..
haha... today i went to Ubin to have a recee...
meaning to check out the campsite and the areas to conduct the activities la...
ya so early morning 8am have to reach bp bus stop..
almost cannot wake up...
then i walk 90% liao then wingkiong ask me go back help him get crest tee..
cos we need it to enter campsite..
so i go back lo but i never blame him la...
since my house was quite near...
so we spend quite some time traveling and finally arrived at campsite...
walk here walk there.. then go back liao..
haha... actually oso did nth much but reach Changi already 2pm liao..
A20 ATC is next next week...
sometimes i hope it can faster end man..
then i can finally have a break from the planning and stuff...
haha.. kind of bored of having to meet up regularly to discuss..
especially when u have other things to do on that day but u know that this is more impt...
but i must say it's a learning experience...
hope the camp will run smoothly.. if not we will die........
haha..
talking about next week..
its NPCC week..haha...
cos i have NP stuff almost everday..
mon-weds: first aid course with cadets
thurs-fri: work plan discussion with TOs
sat: campcraft com briefing at HQ
only left sunday sia.. haha..
then the week after that is ATC liao..
wah... can say i am chionging NP liao..
haha... anyway i will not be very free next year le..
so better do what i wan this year...
then next year i will just be a supervisor in NP.. haha..
although i might not be very active in NP..
but can say that i have put in my best already...
i did what i can do..
haha.. so no regrets...
after my service next year then i will reconsider if i wan to continue my service or not...
haha...
oh ya.. n the first week of Dec, i am going to Japan..
hooray.. haha... can go widen my horizan... haha...
but hope i comes slowly cos after the trip will have to get back to studies le..
next year J2 liao.. must work hard..
i want scholarship! hahaha..
then can go overseas to study... haha...
everyone also must work hard in whatever u do!
haha.. ok... bye ppl...
happy holidays again...
haha.. i like being busy.. if not i will start thinking about studies again..
haha... today i went to Ubin to have a recee...
meaning to check out the campsite and the areas to conduct the activities la...
ya so early morning 8am have to reach bp bus stop..
almost cannot wake up...
then i walk 90% liao then wingkiong ask me go back help him get crest tee..
cos we need it to enter campsite..
so i go back lo but i never blame him la...
since my house was quite near...
so we spend quite some time traveling and finally arrived at campsite...
walk here walk there.. then go back liao..
haha... actually oso did nth much but reach Changi already 2pm liao..
A20 ATC is next next week...
sometimes i hope it can faster end man..
then i can finally have a break from the planning and stuff...
haha.. kind of bored of having to meet up regularly to discuss..
especially when u have other things to do on that day but u know that this is more impt...
but i must say it's a learning experience...
hope the camp will run smoothly.. if not we will die........
haha..
talking about next week..
its NPCC week..haha...
cos i have NP stuff almost everday..
mon-weds: first aid course with cadets
thurs-fri: work plan discussion with TOs
sat: campcraft com briefing at HQ
only left sunday sia.. haha..
then the week after that is ATC liao..
wah... can say i am chionging NP liao..
haha... anyway i will not be very free next year le..
so better do what i wan this year...
then next year i will just be a supervisor in NP.. haha..
although i might not be very active in NP..
but can say that i have put in my best already...
i did what i can do..
haha.. so no regrets...
after my service next year then i will reconsider if i wan to continue my service or not...
haha...
oh ya.. n the first week of Dec, i am going to Japan..
hooray.. haha... can go widen my horizan... haha...
but hope i comes slowly cos after the trip will have to get back to studies le..
next year J2 liao.. must work hard..
i want scholarship! hahaha..
then can go overseas to study... haha...
everyone also must work hard in whatever u do!
haha.. ok... bye ppl...
happy holidays again...
Saturday, November 10, 2007
ranting
long long long time never blog..
kind of tired of blogging already since you can't really speak out your mind here..
but i will just continue to blog when i have the time...
and today is promotion day...
and many were promoted because of some moderation..
my class only 2 had to reconsider their choices..
i am quite happy about it becos we will all be tgt again next year..
no disband, no new friends...
not that i dun wan new friends but i would rather have the current ones that new ones..
haha... and an amazing thing is i never fail a single subject...
all pass.. yeah... haha...
but i think i can improve...
oh no.. is i must improve...
haha.. next year A'levels lo..
it will be much tougher than this year...
i have already struggled so much this year...
hai.. don't know how i will handle next year..
jus hope that some idea will stuck me to work harder..
if i continue at this rate.. i might just forgo A'levels...
haha..
sad thing is some of my friends are leaving PJC..
hai.. they go then i will have less friends around..
less friends means less interaction, and i will be more anti-social..
haha.. because ever since i brought the bike..
i cycle home everyday so already not much interaction with friends...
then now.. even worse...
sometimes.. i jus hope to go to NS soon..
cos i can just chuck studies aside and try something new..
but that is jus a thought.. i know studying days are the most memorable..
i gonna start treasuring these days..
soon i will miss them.. haha...
jus a little bit more about the holidays...
the holiday so far is quite boring..
i have been playing stupid games all along...
on one side of my mind still thinking abt school work..
hope these boring days will be over soon..
december will be much better with overseas trip, ogl stuff and metro sif..
they help me pass my time more fruitfully instead of jus sitting in front of the com...
another are i might want to devote more time in might be NPCC...
i will be passing out next year.. don't know if i will be back..
but i wanna give my best for the unit.. i wan gold for UOPA..
recently, i heard quite alot abt the unit stuff...
the cadets, the development, attitudes and such..
kind of dissapointed.. why do ppl choose NP as a CCA and give a couln't care less attitude??
don't like this kind of ppl..
rmb during my time.. the 7 of us were enthu towards NP...
not all of us i know.. but we motivated each other to come for training,.
we wanna do everything...
now... nobody wants to do anything...
no initiative n teamwork... wonder what they will learn from their 4-5 years in NP...
if u wanna come for training then show that u wanna lear..
if not.. get lost... i don't mind having one pest less..
sometimes.. i am just sick of being a CI...
cos there is nothing much i can do to some situations...
i would rather be a cadet n follow instructions..
nowadays, some ppl are jus unmotivated, unambitious..
have no motive in their life.. and i am sick of seeing these ppl...
ok.. i think i talk alot already...
just some random ranting...
i know tomorrow till be a better day.. haha...
we must always look on the bright side of life..
never lose faith...
haha.. ok.. gtg.. take care ppl!
kind of tired of blogging already since you can't really speak out your mind here..
but i will just continue to blog when i have the time...
and today is promotion day...
and many were promoted because of some moderation..
my class only 2 had to reconsider their choices..
i am quite happy about it becos we will all be tgt again next year..
no disband, no new friends...
not that i dun wan new friends but i would rather have the current ones that new ones..
haha... and an amazing thing is i never fail a single subject...
all pass.. yeah... haha...
but i think i can improve...
oh no.. is i must improve...
haha.. next year A'levels lo..
it will be much tougher than this year...
i have already struggled so much this year...
hai.. don't know how i will handle next year..
jus hope that some idea will stuck me to work harder..
if i continue at this rate.. i might just forgo A'levels...
haha..
sad thing is some of my friends are leaving PJC..
hai.. they go then i will have less friends around..
less friends means less interaction, and i will be more anti-social..
haha.. because ever since i brought the bike..
i cycle home everyday so already not much interaction with friends...
then now.. even worse...
sometimes.. i jus hope to go to NS soon..
cos i can just chuck studies aside and try something new..
but that is jus a thought.. i know studying days are the most memorable..
i gonna start treasuring these days..
soon i will miss them.. haha...
jus a little bit more about the holidays...
the holiday so far is quite boring..
i have been playing stupid games all along...
on one side of my mind still thinking abt school work..
hope these boring days will be over soon..
december will be much better with overseas trip, ogl stuff and metro sif..
they help me pass my time more fruitfully instead of jus sitting in front of the com...
another are i might want to devote more time in might be NPCC...
i will be passing out next year.. don't know if i will be back..
but i wanna give my best for the unit.. i wan gold for UOPA..
recently, i heard quite alot abt the unit stuff...
the cadets, the development, attitudes and such..
kind of dissapointed.. why do ppl choose NP as a CCA and give a couln't care less attitude??
don't like this kind of ppl..
rmb during my time.. the 7 of us were enthu towards NP...
not all of us i know.. but we motivated each other to come for training,.
we wanna do everything...
now... nobody wants to do anything...
no initiative n teamwork... wonder what they will learn from their 4-5 years in NP...
if u wanna come for training then show that u wanna lear..
if not.. get lost... i don't mind having one pest less..
sometimes.. i am just sick of being a CI...
cos there is nothing much i can do to some situations...
i would rather be a cadet n follow instructions..
nowadays, some ppl are jus unmotivated, unambitious..
have no motive in their life.. and i am sick of seeing these ppl...
ok.. i think i talk alot already...
just some random ranting...
i know tomorrow till be a better day.. haha...
we must always look on the bright side of life..
never lose faith...
haha.. ok.. gtg.. take care ppl!