i realised something today.
whenever i am sad or down,
i will want to sleep.
haha. and i am sleepy now.
today was a rather disappointing day.
it was the first aid course day2
i was...
disappointed with the instructor for his time management
disappointed with the pretty bad weather
disappointed with the sec3 squad for their behaviour and attitude
lastly, i am disappointed with MYSELF.
yes. myself.
i could have control the situation better
could have ensure more discipline
could have paid more attention to both the cadets and instrutor
could have been firmer
so many "could have"... yet i seem incapable to accomplish any of them.
i was soft.
cause i thought you guys had learnt
you guys are my most senior in the unit
you should know how to behave yourself.
i was wrong. very wrong indeed.
i didnt want to scold you all
didnt want to embarrass you all in public
but can't you guys just be a bit more mature
be more discipline
be more attentive?
i must say.
even the thickest of wires will snap under strain one day.
and i am one thick layer of wire
one that is easily bent and altered
you can turn me and change my rules, i am fine with it
but if one day, when it really snaps, i wouldnt know what would happen.
but i just wonder when this day will come.
patience is a virtue
but am i having too much of it?
self-check time......
Disappointment is the word.
but tml will be a better day!
smile :)