today is the PASSING OUT PARADE 2006..
it was suppose to be in the open..
but i rained..
so it was shifted to the hall..
worse still.. i now have no commands to shout..
sadded..haha..but nvm...
n u know what?
i cried.. haha.. i really cried...
at first i still joked that i will never cry de..
but in the end i still cried..
haha.. i cried because when i think that this is gonna be my last parade
all the memories i have..
it just overwhelmed me..
n tears treaded down my cheeks..
in the past..i always grumble..
grumble that i am given such a lousy post..
grumble that what i do are not recognised..
but now..i shall grumble no more...
but could only treasure what i have gotten..
the fondable memories..
campcraft team'06.
9th batch nco camp.
atc camp.
sec1 orientation.
these are just a few of what i have gone through..
i always thought they were strenous..
but now i see it as a thing that i would not mind doing it again.
not once not twice but alot of times again n i wouldn't mind.
think again..i will no longer have these experience
when i step into JC..
i would then be muggin hard..
and wouldn't even think of tough camps..
thats why i really treasure the moments so dearly.
so deeply.
that i will make every human being cry.
this is probably the first time i ever cied in a NP uniform..
and sadly..it would probably be my last time too..=(
so people asked me to come back and be cadet inspector
i m comsiderin..but the feelings will never be the same again..
a cadet and a sir..
how to be same?
a cadet jokes with his squad mates...and get scolded tgt by sir
a sir scolds cadets and always seems so alone..
a cadet cry their hearts out during POP
a sir holds back his tears.. because he is the sir.
it all gonna be different..
so i might not come back to be a CI
considering..only time will tell..

but i really appreciate the sec2s
although i am not the NCO
they treated me as one..
allowing me to indulge in their touching powerpoint slides.
i was quite shocked when i saw my face..
but nonetheless glad that they remembered me
haha..and they included me in their photo taking too..
although i am not one of them...again..
haha...so i really appreciate the sec2s..
n everyone that have showered love and care onto me..
either with actions or not..
i can feel it..
thank you very much..

forever rememberin all of u guys..
and all the memories that drives me till today.
nothing willl be forgotten..
except for maybe some lapse of memory here and there..haha..
but most parts will be there..
ya n thanks jiali for offering me tissue..haha
n many others who comforted me(emo me)..
haha..n all the gifts n cards..
once again..